14 January 2013

< Found A New Happiness >

My favorite part of the day lately has been the hours between 7-11am. While I was at home in Seattle over Christmas break, I was excited every morning to start my day. Most days I was up by 7am and one day I was up by 6am just because I was ready and excited for the day. That mentality has stuck with me this past week being back home in Switzerland. I have made new morning goals and made the morning more enjoyable for myself. A little to the back story incase you don't know--I don't have a job here in Switzerland so I don't have a for real reason to even get out of bed every morning...yet I do...I wake up at 7am snuggle with my husband{while he tries to wake up enough to get out of bed...he's not as much of a morning person as I am} and then get out of bed by 7:30 am every weekday morning and prepare breakfast, snacks and lunch for Jachen to take with him to work. In the past I had gone back to bed after Jachen left for work, but for several reasons I decided I didn't like going back to bed. So I stay up. 

Before our trip to Seattle for Christmas I enjoyed just fine the morning time alone. But now, after being back, I feel this extra rejuvenation and excitement for each day and morning. I used to feel a bit of tiredness and dread for the morning, even though I liked it...but now, I wake up happy and ready to get out of bed. It's such a great feeling to wake up each morning not dreading the day before it barely has even begun.

Why am I so excited for the day? Honestly, not sure entirely why this has changed...and who knows maybe in a couple weeks I will dread getting out of bed again{don't plan on it}...but mostly I think the 2weeks home in Seattle fueled me. It was what I needed to be happier again. Before leaving for Seattle, I was worried that my trip home would make me sad and depressed when I returned back to Switzerland out of missing America all over again. I was sure of it. But since returning, I have not felt that way one bit and it's pretty surprising. It has infact had the exact opposite effect...like I said I wake up happier and feel happier throughout the day. I feel like this is the last leg of our journey here in Switzerland...our petition for Jachen to be able to move to the USA has been accepted!!...and we only have the months left here that it takes for us to get the rest of his VISA finalized and I have felt renewed and motivated to enjoy and live up those last few months here. I decided to not spend my energy missing America, but instead enjoying living here while it lasts. 

Being at home allowed me to feel myself again and has reminded me of who I am. Because honestly, since the beginning of living in Switzerland I have felt that I was missing a part of myself. I have had new determination in many areas of my life and have reset new and great goals...few of which I have already accomplished in this past week of the new year. One of which is to being worry less in general and worry less about money. Now I just have to keep it up!

Anyway, so the point is...for the first time I feel truly happy...not just kinda happy...about where I am physically. I have added new routines to my mornings to pump up the day and make me feel happier and more productive. And I have already, since being home a week from Seattle, have found an ever better way to organize our home which always makes me happy. The 2weeks in Seattle and this past week home has been just what I needed and I look forward to many more weeks like it here in Switzerland.


Mel said...

So glad to read this! :) I can relate to what you said about dreading the day ahead and because of that sleeping late....been there. Since about a year now I've made it a point to get up early and now the mornings are definitely my favorite part of the day. The little breakfast, exerise and work routines I go through every day make me feel so much better about myself. I definitely never want to go back to dreading the day ahead....that is just the worst feeling.

Even though I don't comment to often I really do read your blog basically every day and it's nice to read that you are feeling happy here now (even if it's just for the last months). :)

Allison said...

I love your honesty in this post. I remember how when I was without a job for 6 months that it was so tempting to just lay in bed all day and watch netflix. But I always felt so terrible about myself. It's amazing how much happier you are when you are accomplishing things (even if it's taking a shower before noon!). I'm glad that your trip was a positive influence on your life back in Switzerland :)

P.S. Beautiful picture! Such a killer background.

Amy said...

I'm so glad you got to go back home! I could tell you were missing it.

Our first year of marriage was hard (like everyone says it will be), but the hardest part for me was getting used to my in-laws. They lived in Idaho Falls and we were in Rexburg for almost the whole first year. It was hard because their family just did things differently. It made really, really miss mine and not take them for granted. I can't imagine how hard it would be to be living in a different country with unfamiliar customs, traditions, and language.

I'm so happy for you guys that it's working out to move back to the States. I hope you enjoy the rest of your time in Switzerland!