winner

i got myself a winner. really, truly. 20, 20 days until i marry this dreamboat of mine. 20 is such a small number i can't even believe it. a few days ago after my sister and i met with the lady who will be making my cakes, i related to natalie how i couldn't believe i was just in there meeting about the cakes for my very own wedding and how i was so soon to be married. i told her about how i woke up that morning and how the first thoughts in my head were "oh wow, i am getting married!". i asked natalie if it supposed to feel this unreal still. she informed me it would feel unreal until you're at home married and you can finally sink in what just happened. i have always felt really really blessed to have him and we have never had the chance of taking any of our relationship for granted because those times when we get to be together we feel truly blessed about it. its not everyday you get to fly over to europe(or in his case the usa) to be with your boyfriend/fiance. each of those times we got to be together we both felt so lucky and blessed that THIS was happening. being with him has always felt so "lucky", even though jachen doesn't believe in the word. it still feels so unreal to have someone this perfect for me. jachen told me once while following me around shopping, "i was trained my whole life for you", though at that moment he meant it as him being used to following his mom around shopping his whole life and that it's no problem for him to wander from shop to shop, that statement then became somewhat of a motto for us. it has always been evident for the both of us those little shoves in our lives that have directed us individually to be at this moment we belong to now, together. as the year has speed by, i anticipate the next 20 days to do so as well. 20!

jachen is asleep on his pillow in switzerland so he is not awake to protest these photos from being released to the public. that is what he gets for being asleep when i'm awake to blog. actually, to be honest he wont care because you can't embarrass this guy. he is too carefree(one thing i love about him). not that these photos of him are embarrassing. :) you gotta love old photos.

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who wears short shorts.

glad he retired this shirt.

stealthy. a pose you are likely to find him in.

those green eyes. they'll getcha. 

this softy is tough too. jachen served his mandatory time in the swiss army.